sighz...its just a few days to the As... JUST A FEW DAYS MORE. i never expected this day to come. and wad have i been doing for the two years of my Jc life. Nothing dawn..ABSOULETLY nothin but fooling arnd, slacking, daydreaming and thinking abt EVERYTHING under the sun other then work. I AM SUCH A BUMMER. i promised myself i wldnt slack anymore ( two months back) back look at wad ive becum two months later? still as slack as ever. with barely half of my syllabus covered, i dunno why im even taking the a levels anyway! wads the point rite? i know u have never lost until u go into battle.but somehow i dun have the essential weapons and equipments to go into THIS battle. Plus the fact the realie feel like breaking down and crying now. I feel reallie panicky coz i realised last min work never does work anywae ( I KEEP TELLING MYSELF TT, BUT DAMMMIT DAWN!!WHEN WILL U EVER LEARN) but now tt ive come to this REVELATION..its already too late. Prepare to got La Selle or somewhere else Dawn. Its over now.
DAmn. when will i EVER stop talking like tt. Im not being negative. Im just being realistic. U cant expect miracles to happen when u have barely covered half the entire syllabus. I have this whole stack of notes to cover and i wont even be able to finish. the sad part is tt, even after spotting, im left with ONLY tt pile of notes, but yet i cant finish. Can u imagine how long ill take to cover the whole massive lot without spotting?!?? another three years i would assume. I cant believe tt my whole JC life jus boils down to this. i know wen i step into the exam hall on mondae, it will feel like im stepping into the gallows...awaiting my execution. Its boils down to this. I go to jc to suffer and ultimately to setence myself to death. ....sigh.
i feel like ive plain let down my parents. Its saddening really. And when i get back my results next feb, i wunder who will be there to catch me when i faint , when i fall onto the ground into a uncontrollable sobbing mess. SIghz. Lets jus hope miracles do happen. But im quite doubtful abt tt coz ive never realie got a true miracle on my entire life. Most of them ..i work for it...
well..its abt time my miracle happened rite?
some inspirational stuff tts realie nice but NOT EXACTLY helping me..
small faith is saying " i will do it!"
bigger faith is saying :" i can do it!"
and the greatest faith?
..is saying.." IT IS DONE!"
geee.....i dun even posess a single bit of faith.
sighz..CHIN UP...i guess even if im going to get executed, i gotta somehow try to make it a good show rite?
:OP